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NOTICE: The following blog is in Filipino. 

Minsan nasa eksaktong panahon at oras ka na tila ang lahat ng bagay sa mundo ay tumitigil. Sa moment na yun, lumukso ang damdamin mo, nag-iba ang pintig ng puso mo, at kinilig ang lahat ng atay at balun-balunan mo. Pakiramdam mo ay lumiwanag ang langit gawa ng mga fireworks na pang-Pyrolympics sa MOA. Wala namang mali doon dahil lahat naman tayo ay may karapatang makaranas ng imaginary fireworks kasabay ng pagkire ng laman loob. Ang mahirap ay kapag nanatili ka sa moment na yun. Sapagkat habang ikaw ay nasa moment na yun at haharang-harang ka sa daan, ang sanlibutan ay patuloy na uusad; magaganap ang magaganap nang hindi ka hinihintay – may mga tatakbo, maglalakad, mananalo, matatalo,  manganganak, matatapilok, madadapa, kakain, mabubulunan, magugutom, mamamalimos, sasahod, hindi sasahod, mamomroblema, madedepress, magpapakamatay, mamamatay, magluluksa, tatawa, magtatagumpay, uunlad sa buhay, masasawi sa pag-ibig, at lahat ng action word na maisip mo – lahat 'yan patuloy na mangyayari, at hindi ka aantayin. Huwag na huwag mo 'yang kakalimutan. At sa oras na nananatili kang tulala at palutang-lutang sa panaginip mo, nawa ay hindi ka tumatawid sa kalsada dahil kapag nag-green ang stop light na 'yan at hindi ka nagising sa iyong wastong ulirat, hindi ka sasantohin at aantayin ng mga kaskaserong ordinary buses na 'yan.

The Commitment

I haven't been "in a relationship" for the longest time. It has been more than seven years to be a bit more specific. I was in my sophomore year in college when I last had it. It ended when the both of us realized we weren't that committed to each other. I got stuck into student politics which I never imagined to be so demanding, and she... well I really never knew what went on with her. See? That's how uncommitted we were... or at least I was. It was in that season that the words commitment made sense to me. Committing to something/one means choosing it/her over anything/one else. See that in choosing, it means that there is a choice. Always.

I had this idea to go to Google and see what the top picture will be when I type the word "commitment", hence the image on the left -- a group of people's hands laid on each other in a radial manner as in doing a hands-in before a huddle break. Unfortunately, it totally ruined my direction for writing this blog and messed up with what my point exactly was -- a two way commitment, not a group or company commitment. However, in keeping with the theme of this post, I have committed to go with the  inclusion of this photograph no matter how irrelevant it is. I do have a choice to go with an image that made more sense, but I choose to be prideful and stick to the irrelevant hands picture no matter how foolish it seems.

Getting back on track, I simply wrote this because right now, I have decided to give myself fully to a commitment. Redundant, isn't it -- to fully give yourself to a commitment? But that's how dedicated, decided, and locked in I am to this. I solemnly swear to make room in my life for her this time. I will make it a point to meet with her more days than I don't in a week. I look forward to every hour we will spend together. It will never be a chore but instead, a delight. This commitment has been the best I've been in so far, next to giving my life to Jesus. I just went into a relationship with my local gym. Time to lose those kilos!

What were you thinking?